Tag: growing pains

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July 6th, 2007 · · new thing(s) of the week, pursuit of happiness, the grind 4 comments - Tags: ,

Plans change. Shit happens. Moan if only for a little and then revamp your plans and hop to it.

So much easier said then done. It’s hard to let go of that master plan. Whatever it is. A job that extends you luxuries you dreamed of as an undergrad. A boy that was suppose to be the one. A car that was suppose to last 2 more years to give you more time to save for a better car. Perpetual lessons in life yet it doesn’t cease to stun us each time we relearn it. Starting over from scratch reminds me of the futility and absurdity of life. It doesn’t really matter what you’ve acquired and accomplished, it could be swept away quickly and randomly. Maybe the Buddhists were onto something when they encourage you to not form attachments to anything. That that is one of the sources of pain. Hm.

I went car shopping for the first time in my life. Bing took me. Test drove an Altima and a Camry. I fell in love with the Altima.. I love the proximity smart key thing and the leather package complete with sun roof and butt warmers. But I just can’t afford it on top of other bills. I WAS a little delusional at first.. but Michael with the help of Excel spreadsheets brought me back to earth. Looks I have to settle for a more economical car. Another Corolla or a Civic then.

I guess better to lose a car than other things. (Knock on wood)

displaced

June 28th, 2007 · · new thing(s) of the week, on the nightstand, the grind, wanderlust 2 comments - Tags: ,

I’m been feeling displaced and fragmented lately.

I’ve been staying at my friends, Deesh and Bing’s place since Friday. I’ve been officially homeless since Monday night. My things are stored in my first storage place ever rented (new thing), Selina and Ryan’s place, my brother’s place, Deesh and Bing’s place, and my car. Fragmented.

I haven’t read since last Wednesday before bed. That’s my bedtime routine.. reading and journaling. I haven’t done both actually since last Wednesday. Does not help the displaced and fragmented feeling. I haven’t done either because I’ve been without a night stand lamp since… well, last Wednesday. I’m almost going out of my mind.

Last night I became addicted to a Nintendo DS game called Puzzle Quest. (uh oh) You don’t need a reading light for that addiction.

Friday, I’m heading up to Dallas to visit Michael and do a whole slew of Dallas-related new things. Am excited. Never actually drove on my own to Dallas before. I’m a nightmare behind the wheel. Unfortunately, I do nothing to dispel the Asian driving stereotype.