Come and go


Kim came over Thursday night and spent the weekend with me and we party hard all the live long day (and night) during ACL weekend. We had Din Ho Saturday before we went to ACL and above you see our fortunes. Kim’s silly and mine was eerily apt.

In the span of 2 months I’ve had 2 falling-outs with 2 friends I held quite dearly to my heart. They were truly A-listers. Both kind of blind-sighted me because I didn’t think they were even capable of hurting me. Call me naive. I think I said good bye to the 2nd aforementioned person last night? It’s hard to tell because he actually seems sincerely sorry. So we may have a future but I doubt we’d be as close as we were. We were just friends but he knows the gravity of my trust issues with men and mid-apology the 2nd time we talked after the initial falling out incident, he told me, “I hope this doesn’t further affect your opinion of men; they’re not all like me.” Makes me sick. I think that’s why I have such commitment phobia… You just never know. In the end, everyone is alone. In the end, we’re the only ones responsible for our own happiness.

Last night I was on my balcony with Kim and Si Nae and I can’t quite remember what we were talking about (sign of a very good conversation) but I started a sentence, “I have a lot of friends who- “ Then it hit me and I interrupted myself, “wait, no I don’t!”


photo courtesy of dear Kim.